This post has me wallowing in self-pity. Don't read if you don't want to.
But first off let me begin with how I love Skyfall's (2012) fandom.
There are some very, very talented writers there (wells, I'm going to list down just a few of rec. Just a few. Totally not exahustive at all):
1. skylights with her/his the hand beneath your head
series (Or, what happens in New Orleans, on the way there and after. A hurt/comfort series). Q/Bond kidnapped and tortured before being rescued is a staple in Skyfall fandom because, obviously, espionage. This series has the approach I like best so far. Has a way with words, realistic, angsty yet still warm and fuzzy. (I love don't open your eyes just yet by raven_aorla
too - the way she brings in her knowledge of Thailand into the fic is delighful - but anyway, this entry is about, well, I'm getting to that.)2. scioscribe with her/his a pox on all your machines
[The one where Q controls the universe with technology and Bond is trying to avoid complications (like falling for the voice in his head)] and five years isn't so long
, a realistic portrayal of Bond and Traumatic Brain Injury.
3. Paxlux, with her no gods are present, no wings no halos
[“Those who spit at history are doomed to repeat it,” Q says.]
4. 8611, with her Artificial Intelligence!Q in not one will know of the war
or cyborg!Q in the body electric
This is my one-stop-site to 00Q goodness: http://qbond.tumblr.com/
(Yes, Skyfall fandom is mostly present in AO3 and tumblr. The two platforms I'm not familiar with).
I've only written two stories there so far, Love in Codes
in Bondlock verse [Q is Sherlock's and Mycroft's younger brother] and Ghost in the Machine
[Q is a persocom]. And I haven't really made any 'break' at all, any piece that gets landed in someone's rec-list.
The thing about Skyfall fandom is...I'm not sure whether the fandom notices (may be it's just me), but it is...a bit exclusive. There are only few authors that get to make any 'break', mostly mentioned above. And yes, I wholeheartedly agree that they are VERY talented, I can attest to that.
But there are brilliant pieces that end up unrecognised. And I get the feeling that the moderators/owners of tumblr sites like qbond and bondlockisgo know the authors often rec-ed quite closely, and the group is quite a close-knit human-relations-based group, which I cannot enter.
Perhaps I am just hurt by this:
Now, I'm not hurt because anyone hurt me. I'm just too sensitive.
I don't write as well as them. No, Sir, the gap is HUGE. But most of the time, I hope I have a chance. In terms of kudos or hits or bookmarks, Ghost in the Machine ('Ghost') isn't that far off, so I do wonder why.
Maybe because I'm a marketer more than I am a writer. The reason I like FFnet, still, is because of the analytics. I can deduce that I would get the most reviews or visits if I upload at a certain timing, if I add certain plot devices to the story, etc. It feels a little empty, yes, like it's not about my talents anymore (or who am I kidding, do I even have that talent).
Most of the time, when I tell a story, I didn't put that much thought into the wordings. I do put some thought, of course, on dialogues and poetic lines and story format, yes, but What I want to tell is the plotline, and 8611 is pure brilliance in her/his use of words to build a setting, something I sorely lack.
Maybe it's because of my anime background. I realise quite a few of Ghost's commenters know Chobits. The people who left kudos at Ghost and at 'the body electric' are different. Strange, I feel, the two stories are about cyborg!Q, who won't the group of readers who like the stories be at least 50% the same? Does this mean that readers who have been in anime-based fandoms are attracted to different things as opposed to readers who primarily stay in TV-shows-based fandoms (which I imagine generally has more Westerners)? Or is this phenomenon because Asians and Westerners are attracted to different things in a fic? Or is it the people attracted to Ghost are generally younger?
I do realise CLAMP has shaped my writing quite a lot, and two of my 'most successful' stories to date are historical-fantasy-AU, so perhaps I am simply out of depth in Skyfall fandom because the setting (espionage, high tech, characters who don't show feelings) is not my strength.
Or may be it's coz I have no talents.
Anyways, time to go back to Accounting Valuations. EPS Calculations and Assets Distortion Adjustments Yay.